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Meeting Invitation
Meeting Invitation


I sit here
all alone
Empty rooms
Quietness
Other than the whirring of a fan
No screaming of a young child playing
No cooing of a happy baby
Whirr whirr whirr
Which once was a house full of love and joy
Now feels like a nightmare I cant escape
Wishing
Hoping
Dreaming
That one day ill have that back again
The coos
The screams
The noises that irritate most parents are the ones I long for the most
The endless cuddles
The mommy mommy mommy
I just want it all back
I want a reason to get out of bed and do something
The darkness with them gone keeps closing in and I feel like it will never end
I feel like those coos
Those screams
Those giggles
Those cuddles
Those cries
Will never come back
I feel like the life im living now
Visiting my own kids like theyre my niece and nephew will never end
I've thought of burning cutting smoking drinking anything to concrete that pain and maybe just maybe take it all away
but I know if I do the pain will never go away because it may be the thing that takes it away forever
Those cries
Those coos
Those screams
Those giggles
Would never come back
So I sit here listening to the whirr of the fan hoping that one of these days that whirr isn't the only thing to fill these rooms



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